First Term Exam

Assalamualaikum.

Examophobia.
I wish a psychologist would say to me that is my problem.
When any big examination come, most of people would be so nervous and they'll study harder even it is last minutes.
But some of them will just ignore the fact that they haven't do any revision at all and they just let it be like that.

Somehow, I am quite different. (or maybe I haven't found someone like me yet)

When the exam is around the corner;
I feel numb.
Scared but not scared.
Nervous but not nervous.
I don't know how to describe my feelings.
All mixed up.

I barely move . Just lay on my bed and watch movies but in the same time I want to study, memorize things. I just can't. :'(

I am trying so hard to clear my mind from other things but I lost .
Lost to the demons.

I can't find my soul.
Help me.

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